Babies fall when they learn to walk. Children fall when they learn to ride a bicycle. Teenagers fall when they get an 'F' grade for a paper. Adults fall when they see their children being sent to a rehab centre. Whether literally or metaphorically, all of us fall down umpteen times in our lives.

Whatever the case though, the 'f' word is used to describe negative actions, low points in our lives. Its effect on different people however, may be for the better or for worse. Some find strength in failing or in meeting obstacles. They work harder, strive to get to their destination and may well succeed. But for some, especially those on their first failure or those already with multiple setbacks, it may well be the fatal shot for them.

Part of the point of a blog is for others to know the blog owner better. Be it the owners' experiences, tastes or opinions. So although not proud of it, I have to confess it's been more of a giving-up effect than booster for me. Why so? I could've had a perfectly invisible life. Mid-low income family, but only child so that there's sufficient cash to go around, no connections with hooligans, mid-ranking student who's got a place in the University and no huge exposure to the public. But as readers of this blog, you should by now know that I lead an alternative lifestyle. Right, so you're different, but that can be an asset, you say. It was more difficult than I ever thought.

Especially when it comes to other people. Being that and a single child, opinions from other people always mattered to me. Be it 'you're short' or 'buck teeth', it shouldn't matter by now, but sometimes it somehow did.
Of course it's even worse when it comes to matters of the heart. I'm hopeless. I fell, and fell. I have slowly become too scary to get involved with, and definitely not proud of that.

How do I pull myself up for good? I want to have a happy life, although in the real world there's no one person who has it all. For all of you who have fell and fallen deeply, I wish we can all eventually find a friend, a love and a place where we can pick ourselves up and brave all the tribulations.