Six feet under means a person is dead and buried in a coffin under the ground. 'Six centimetres under' has got nothing to do with death except I wanted the title of this post to sound just a tad more interesting. My coining of this expression is supposed to mean 'under one's skin', which means looking beneath the surface, because there are so many things and people cannot be deciphered just by looking on the outside.

There was a guy. The best words to describe him were 'a ball of energy', 'noisy', 'amusing companion' and other words along thie line. One would naturally think this is a description of a popular person. Well-loved among friends, gets invitations to parties, is hardly ever home for dinner and stuff like that. To an extent, that was the truth. Under the layer of excitement and laughter lies another one of extreme insecurity.

'Why so?' you would question. A person who is popular has got nothing to worry about as far as people is concerned. As it turned out, he grew up in an environment where he thinks it is of utmost importance what others thought of him. He was afraid of not pleasing the people he liked, he was afraid of losing the people who are now classified as friends.

He would call, he would text and he would write to those whom he liked or treasured. And when he got their responses, it gave him great relieve to know that he stil those people with him. However, he did not know how to play it good. Soon, he would appear to message too much, call too much, and these people started to back away because they were afraid this guy was getting possessive. He tried to explain himself, tried to assure those people who were getting unsure if they should just ignore this guy for good, but as he tried to do so, he always kind-of scared them even more.

For a long time, he lived like this. He hated himself, for he was worried if people will all be repelled by him this way. It hurt him so when the people he loved saw him as something to be wary against. Till today, he lives the life of a person whom many still regard to be one of a rather popular person, but fails so miserably when it came to those who actually meant more to him. And someday, he hopes, there will be a happy ending, be it with one person who really matters, or alone.