+ stay the same +

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
you were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are,
when you learn to love yourself,
you're better off by far.

Those are the lyrics taken out of Joey McIntyre's song, back when I was in secondary school, I think. So it's not a new song, but it's lyrics were taken out for a reason.

Now thing is, I want to be someone else. I want to be different from who I am now. People always say, you're not yourself if something's changed. I disagree, because we all are changing, be it knowingly or subconsciously. Come on, admit it, nobody was as innocent and thinks the world is all good as we thought it was when we were still little kids. No one was slutty when he/she was 6. No one calls anyone else 'fat ass' in their kindergarten times. So you get my drift.

I don't exactly like who and what I am. I want to be taller, more handsome, without those buck teeth, better built, smarter, richer, adept with musical instruments like the piano and violin, able to speak 5 languages, run faster, play more sports, speak with more conviction, be more artistic and be more decisive, to name some things. In short, I wished I was almost perfect.

That ain't gonna happen. No one's perfect. But definitely, if someone were to dedicate that song to me one day, I'm not agreeing with it. Because we all change, and I don't want to stay in this present form forever. Of course, I don't despise myself, but obviously, I'm not too happy either.

So I'll change, but deep down inside, I'm still me, so don't be alarmed.

Ok, time to stop this. I'm using too many I's and me's in this post.