Human behaviour is strange. They throw crazy hissy fits, they smash things on the wall, they spew out words that shouldn’t have come out, they hatch evil plots, and indulge in sinful pleasures. So people do things that they will think were totally ridiculous after they’ve done it. Why then do they still do it knowing they are going to slap their head and say ‘shit, what have I done’ in retrospect?

It all probably boils down to the fact that we are all irrational. Fine, that sounds like too sweeping a statement. We all have moments of irrationality. Somehow our minds just go loose sometimes and a moment of madness finds its way out of our shells however Stepford we normally are.

Then we get angry at ourselves, we plead for forgiveness from God, from family, friends and even the angel in ourselves. After a short period of probably very tough self control, we suffer from withdrawal symptoms of not able to do our crazy habits and start all over again. So yes, resistance if futile when it comes to sins.

Sometimes though, they really want to change. Their habits of gossiping, showing their bad tempers, sleeping around, eating too much junk food… The people around those who want to change should try to give them support. Well maybe not all are worth extra chances, but let the effort do the talking. Sinful habits and practices will never be totally wiped out, but it’s always worth accepting a much smaller extent of it.

And wow, we are one screwed up species.

The dialogue in Desperate Housewives are well written, I think.

Bree: But I just want you to happy.
Danielle: Don't just want it, make it happen!

One of my favourite TV shows.

The proper MP3 player-mobile phones hybrids, with 4GB hard disks, land in Singapore.
Samsung's i300X comes with a 2" QVGA resolution screen and costs $1088 w/o contract. Runs on Windows Mobile 2003 (which means Windows Media Player present), has 1.3megapixel camera, has smaller but sharper screen than N91. SRS WOW effects, dual speakers and a Transflash card slot also feature.
The Nokia N91's launch price is $988 with a 2-yr contract. Symbian S60 is the choice of OS instead, and the camera is a 2megapixel one. Wi-Fi allows you to surf wirelessly at hotspots, but it weighs 40g more and is much wider than the Samsung. FM radio included. No memory expansion.
The battle is on once the W950 arrives. No camera, but it features shock resistant flash memory instead of hard disk memory. Also, Samsung already has a i310 model with a 2megapixel camera and 8GB memory.


2 more interesting Samsung launches, the P300 and P850 are the slimmest and first with a 3megapixel camera respectively (in the local market at least). P300's features are largely like the D500, with its display in a landscape orientation. It's constructed in stainless steel. $498 with 2 year contract. P850 looks like a fine pre-emptive strike to SE's K790i, but is thicker due to clamshell form factor. Sharp remains as the only phones in the GSM market to feature optical zoom. $838 with 2 year contract.


Dopod's 585 model gives a new lease of life to the O2 Xphone IIm. Pluses like lightweight, design, smartphone platform and multimedia features remain, while adding built in Chinese language support and a 1.3megapixel camera. The $138 price with 2-yr contract puts many un-smart phones to shame.


Nokia's 6280 may be ugly, but with 3G, 2megapixel camera, miniSD expansion, nice sharp display and speedier and more stable interface (compared to the S60 smartphone OS which half of us don't need). And for that, Nokia-philes may be happy to know that their ideal phone costs a reasonable $298 with contract.


Moving on to digital cameras,

the Samsung Digimax i6 may look like a fine convergent device on paper, with the marriage of a digicam and portable media player, but on closer scrutiny it doesn't play either role well. Image quality is not as good as Canons and as a media player it fails by not having sufficient built in memory.


Sony unleashes its gorgeous new T30 as a replacement for the T9. Sensor is bumped up further to 7.2 megapixels, display up to 3" too (but not touchscreen like Sony's own N1). 3x optical zoom remain and image stabilization remain. 58MB built-in memory, expand with MS Duo cards. Expect it to cost at least $799 at launch.


Sony seems to have realized that Samsung has been eating up chunks of its business and have decided to drop prices for their products. More reasonably priced Vaio notebooks have appeared and the NW-A1000 (6GB) and NW-A3000 MP3 players are next. Prices are down $100 to $299 and $399 respectively. Fine sounding and good value if you don't need the video-viewing capabilities of the Zen Vision M, Samsung J70 and iPod Video.

I was feeling cocky today, because what I said yesterday in the post regarding the JC kid who committed suicide due to self-imagined poor endowment came out in the papers today. Doctors think what drove him to suicide might have been stress from being in a high ranking school (and other factors) that led to depression. This depression could've came in the form of BDD (read previous post) when he thought his penis wasn't big enough.

After digesting the whole article, I felt that the reporter who came up with yesterday's article stating misinformation during sex education in schools clearly didn't think deep enough or didn't watch The Opera Show. Anyway, some easy thinking will bring a question to his/her claims. When has sexual education ever covered anything with regards to the size of one's private parts? It was just plain weird.

I thank Oprah for letting me be cocky for one day, and shall resolve to watch the show whenever I have the time to.

Finally an update.

Anyway, I was told by a friend today about an article in today's Straits Times. On the front page of the Home section, headlines read 'JC student kills himself because he thought his private parts were too small'. When I was told the headlines, I couldn't help but broke into hilarious laughter. Like, how can anyone even be so stupid to commit suicide because he thought he wasn't well endowed? It sounded quite ridiculous.

After some thought however, I started to feel abit of pity for the boy who killed himself. From an episode of Oprah I watched earlier, she had these people who suffered from Body Dysmorphic Disorder. It is basically a psychiatric condition that makes the patient imagine there is a serious defect in their appearance. They are excessively concerned about the way they look. Her guests included a woman who had over 20 plastic surgeries in the past decade and a man who would take hours to prepare to go out and yet still worry he doesnt look perfect enough. I thought his case could be linked to this disorder, instead of misinformation of sexual education in schools as the paper suggested.
Or he just watched too much porn and thought he wasn't well endowed enough compared to the male porn stars. Hah.

Further in the report, it appears that a doctor he seeked told the boy that his 'willy' was of an average size of an asian male, but he was still convinced that he didn't have enough 'mojo'. No point telling him this now, but for those who think that their sexual organs are not as 'wow' as porn stars, it is the ability to make their partner feel good that matters instead of how big everything is.

Also, while most of us didn't come from the same gene pool as Brad Pitt or Heidi Klum, physical appearance alone is not enough to judge whether one is a good person or not. Hot hunks can still be jerks, and gorgeous babes can still be bitches.